it wasn't me you loved

i've lost a lot of friends this last year
not to arguments or distance
but because they woke up one day
and realized they did not love me

i was sick for so long
always drowning
i was a ghost of a girl
always hiding in the shadows

that girl was easy to love
she was quiet and obedient
and she needed you to save her

but one day
she began to stand
on her own two feet
and she opened her mouth
and spoke with her own voice
the ghost blew away
and she fleshed out in living color

that was the day
they realized they did not really love her